My toddler's 1st Birthday party in February 2020 was the last big gathering we had before everything shut down. She just turned 2 and I've been in this suspended state of excitement for all the things I want to experience with her- museums, trips to the library, swim classes again, going to the zoo, and on and on. I cannot wait for those…
My toddler's 1st Birthday party in February 2020 was the last big gathering we had before everything shut down. She just turned 2 and I've been in this suspended state of excitement for all the things I want to experience with her- museums, trips to the library, swim classes again, going to the zoo, and on and on. I cannot wait for those things to happen but I'm also preparing for the wave of grief to hit me over the time we lost. I was a nanny for a long time and did all those outings with other people's children. I can't tell you how thrilled I was to start doing those things with my own kid and then suddenly it all stopped. I'm so goddamn angry whenever I remember the things she's *not* experiencing at this exact age with us or her grandparents or her cousins so I try not to think about it. But it'll hit me eventually and oof, not ready for that unpleasant tide of emotions.
Yes! I am in the exact same boat. I can't wait to take my now almost two year old daughter to all of the kiddy experiences. I grieve over the time she has lost with her cousins, too.
We didn't get to have the big first birthday party that I had imagined we would in June 2020...and now that a lot of my extended family has shown their true colors during this pandemic (being anti-mask and not taking COVID seriously to the point of even going out to restaurants after being directly exposed) I don't really want to have that big party anymore. That's a really dizzying concept.
My younger son turned one in May 2020. He started daycare in January 2020 but was home with us by the second week of March. I am so nervous for how this re-entry will feel for him. I had a very rough time in his post partum period and will mourn that fact for a long time. I am grateful that he and my husband have a absolutely beautiful bond that might not have happened if I hadn't been knocked back so hard. I anticipate the first cold my son catches will send me into a little bit of breakdown. Anyway, right there with you.
My daughter turned 1 in June 2020! I had a really rough postpartum with her, too, made worse by the fact that I could only take off for 6 weeks. Weirdly, the beginning of the pandemic was somewhat healing for me because I did get an extra six weeks with her at the beginning. But I just wanted you to know that I hear you and relate so much.
My toddler's 1st Birthday party in February 2020 was the last big gathering we had before everything shut down. She just turned 2 and I've been in this suspended state of excitement for all the things I want to experience with her- museums, trips to the library, swim classes again, going to the zoo, and on and on. I cannot wait for those things to happen but I'm also preparing for the wave of grief to hit me over the time we lost. I was a nanny for a long time and did all those outings with other people's children. I can't tell you how thrilled I was to start doing those things with my own kid and then suddenly it all stopped. I'm so goddamn angry whenever I remember the things she's *not* experiencing at this exact age with us or her grandparents or her cousins so I try not to think about it. But it'll hit me eventually and oof, not ready for that unpleasant tide of emotions.
Yes! I am in the exact same boat. I can't wait to take my now almost two year old daughter to all of the kiddy experiences. I grieve over the time she has lost with her cousins, too.
We didn't get to have the big first birthday party that I had imagined we would in June 2020...and now that a lot of my extended family has shown their true colors during this pandemic (being anti-mask and not taking COVID seriously to the point of even going out to restaurants after being directly exposed) I don't really want to have that big party anymore. That's a really dizzying concept.
Oh yea- dealing with the true colors thing is going to be quite the dilemma on so many levels.
My younger son turned one in May 2020. He started daycare in January 2020 but was home with us by the second week of March. I am so nervous for how this re-entry will feel for him. I had a very rough time in his post partum period and will mourn that fact for a long time. I am grateful that he and my husband have a absolutely beautiful bond that might not have happened if I hadn't been knocked back so hard. I anticipate the first cold my son catches will send me into a little bit of breakdown. Anyway, right there with you.
My daughter turned 1 in June 2020! I had a really rough postpartum with her, too, made worse by the fact that I could only take off for 6 weeks. Weirdly, the beginning of the pandemic was somewhat healing for me because I did get an extra six weeks with her at the beginning. But I just wanted you to know that I hear you and relate so much.